I try my best to throw myself into my writing on the days when I hurt. It seems my best work comes from those days when it rains in my heart.-Me
It’s been almost a year since I started this silly blog of mine. It has evolved. I have too. I’m not even sure who I am anymore. I like this new person I’ve become though. I do. I’m proud of the words that I write. The goofy and sometimes profound things I say. The music, the madness, the dirty stories, and the friends I’ve made. This is quite a community. I’m so pleased to be a part of it. I love to write. Everything. Everything. Everything. This is my calling.
I have been nominated for over 20 awards this year. Over 20! Five just last week. I need a trophy case! Growing up, I was the girl that was always picked last for sports and I never won anything. I was the weird girl. The drama girl. The musician. The loud girl that was looking for attention and someone to love me. I had huge boobs too. That’s about all I had going for me. Fortunately I married a wonderful man. Had great children. Made a good life. There was sadness and depression in this life too. Addiction.
That’s how all of this started. I was transforming; evolving. I was losing 150 lbs and re-discovering myself. As a woman. Not just a wife and mother. But a woman. I was learning that I was viable and vibrant. Beautiful. I shared my story and found that it was the story of so many others. We’re all going through our own lives of quiet desperation. I’m not trying to sound arrogant when I say I’m beautiful. I never thought I was. I still struggle with it. I totally get it when P!nk sings, Don’t Let Me Get Me. I’m prone to self-destruction. Madness even. Here, in this sphere though, I feel safe. Normal. It is my haven.
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
Can’t take the person staring back at me
I’m a hazard to myself
Don’t let me get me
I’m my own worst enemy
It’s bad when you annoy yourself
Don’t want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
- Select the blogs you think deserve the ‘Blog of the Year 2012 Award’.
- Write a post and tell about the blogs you have chosen and present them with their award.
- Please include a link back to this page and include these rules (do not alter the rules or the badges).
- Let the blogs you have chosen know that you have given them this award and share the rules with them.
- Click on my Facebook page on the right hand side of my blog
- As a winner of the award – please add a link back to the blog that presented you with the award – and then proudly display the award on your blog and sidebar … and start collecting stars…
The groovy thing about this award is you can give it to as many bloggers as you want. My list is long and probably doesn’t include everyone that is should. If I’ve forgotten you, I’m sorry. Also you can win this award up to six times, so pay it forward. And send it back to me if ya want. Wink, wink.
So here goes:
The Wanderer’s Thoughts: Because she writes beautiful poetry that melts my heart.
Boomie Bol: Because every word she writes is like music.
As Long as I’m Singing: Because he is my brother. He is. Well, I wish he was anyway.
Brainsnorts: Because he’s sarcastic and funny. Most of the time. I love every word he writes.
Tales of a Charm City Chick: Because she’s damn hilarious and beautiful too.
Christopher De Voss: Because he’s damn funny and gorgeous too.
Dean J. Baker: Because he was one of my first followers and his poetry makes me swoon.
You Know You’re Borderline When: Because she taught me that it was okay to be BPD.
Worldly Winds: Because I’m a sucker for beautiful poetry.
Breathtaking Portraits: Because I like pretty pictures of, everything.
Kyle Mew: Because there’s nothing like reading the lustful words of a dirty poet.
Susan Daniels Poetry: Because her poetry speaks to my soul.
Lead.Learn.Live.: Because David loves my potty mouth and thinks I rock. Oh and I think he rocks too.
Rincewind Erotixx: Because I love pin up style photography. And I think the female form is beautiful. Just beautiful.
Stories by Williams: Matt gave me one of my first award noms. Plus he’s a sci fi geek. And I just love me some sci fi.
Mind Retrofit 7: Her poetry is cosmic and mystical. Stars, moons and clouds are some of my favorite things.
Oyia Brown: Because she writes everything well. And she reblogs me. I love it. It warms my heart.
jensinewall: I love her photos, observations and writing.
Cat Forsley: She is a beautiful poet. A songwriter too. I know that if we lived closer, we’d be fast friends.
The Change You Life Blog: Because Stu was one of my first followers and has turned into a dear friend.
Just a Thought: Because her poetry is sad and dark. And she loves P!nk, just like me.
A Thin Girl: I love Susannah’s tag line, never judge a girl by her weight. She’s funny, sad, sarcastic, and all kinds of other good things. She makes me long to live in NYC.
Paula Acton: Because she is brilliant and British. I love her writing. Plus she wears her hair in a Pixie, just like me.
The Reclining Gentleman: I just know he’s young, dashing and handsome. He makes me kinda tingly with his writing.
You Jivin’ Me Turkey: I followed this guy because he’s a quotes whore and so am I. I have found him to be so much more though. He’s a charmer and a sweet, sweet man. I long to share a cozy couch, 80’s movies and popcorn with him.