I have a fire in my belly, dear God I hope it isn’t heartburn….

I was talking to my DH on the way home from a fun night in the Motor City last Friday. I’d had a lot of caffeine and was talking a mile a minute. I wanted to know what my husband had a passion for. He really couldn’t give me an answer. He did tell me that he thought he’d done everything that he wanted to before he got married…… I was kind of taken aback. I wanted to scream at him, Dude why am I not your passion???? And I also kind of felt gypped. We got married when I was 21 and he was 31. He had plenty of time to live. Me not so much. I don’t regret the decisions I’ve made. To get married young, to have children too. But I’m only 43, I have so much more living to do….. Now that I’ve lost 137 lbs. I have a fire in my belly, a passion for life, and I want and will do more. I’m writing now. I never thought I’d do that. I never thought anyone cared enough to read what I have to say. WOW was I pleasantly surprised. I want to sing again. I could belt it like Adele back in the day. I think if I took a few months and really worked hard, I could get this voice of mine back in great shape. I’d build my range and be really kick ass again. Fortunately my daughter has a love for music like me, and is an excellent voice instructor. I’m going to run a 5K in the Spring. I haven’t run on a regular basis in 13 years. I’m so ready to build up my stamina and do some major weight training. I’m ready to do so much more. Not sure what it is that I’m going to do yet, but when I find out I will let you know. I need passion, I want passion, I DESERVE passion! I need the person that I’m with to feel it too. I need, want, demand to feel passion again. To feel that burn. In every part of my life. As I said in my FB post from yesterday, some of us women don’t find our fire till our 40s. Fortunately we still have plenty of time to burn….. Will I find that burn in the situation that I’m in now. Will I find it on my own? Will I find it within me, with in someone else? Only time will tell. I’m not about to go sit on the porch and get old. With God’s good grace I’m going to get old, but I’m going to do it with a fiery passion like you’ve never seen!

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