Insignificance

SPARKLE!This is not going to be a Debbie Downer post. It isn’t.

I disconnected this weekend. I stayed away from Facebook. Steered clear of WordPress too. Until Sunday when RG and I put the finishing touches on a story that we’d been writing for a few weeks.

I kept to myself. I enjoyed the rainy days and the January thaw. I watched bad movies.

I laid on the couch on Saturday night. Snuggled close to the husband and watched (Ick!) football. Peyton Manning was playing, so I didn’t mind it too much. I think he’s such a damn doll. Funny too. Give me a funny man and I melt. The Wonder Schnauzers draped themselves all over us. We went to bed at 10:00 pm. Slept in till 8:00 the next morning.

I went to the movies with Roger Darling on Sunday. Zero Dark Thirty (go see it!). Did an early dinner. Folded clean laundry. Wasted time. Drank coffee. Got food around the week. It’s time to eat healthy again.

I have to tell you, it was probably one of the best weekends I’ve had in a long time.

When I logged into Facebook this morning, I didn’t feel the draw to it I usually do. I didn’t feel it too much when I was on WordPress either. I checked my work email a bit and I’ve been working on reimbursements and all kinds of other office paper work. I’ve stayed off of my iPhone too.

My mind isn’t racing. My thoughts aren’t scattered. I’m breathing easy and not anxious. There’s no depression; anger. For today anyway. I’m smiling. Not apprehensive. My soul is quiet. Not tortured.

I’ve come to the realization that I’m but a speck of sand on a beach. A mere ripple of wave in a vast sea. I must quell my need for significance.

I’m here to get on in this life and live the best I can. To love those around me.

It’s nice when you realize your own insignificance and fade into the background.

To let go.

Love and kisses, An insignificant Sparkly Girl (and I really am okay with that.)

43 thoughts on “Insignificance

  1. Such a great insight to share Renee ~ sometimes we have to step back and pause… sort of take personal inventory of what is driving us … and where/what it is we are driving … Sounds like a perfect weekend for you to recharge and regroup ~ Thank you ~ x R

  2. You are significant precious simply because you exist. Never ever believe the lie that you are insignificant. You are a note in the song of life, without you, the song would be off. Simply without you. Glad you disconnected, it’s good to remember that your value comes from your existence not from what you do. What you do makes a difference for sure but does not increase or decrease your significance as a human. Just your contribution. Much love. Sheri

    • Thanks my lovely Sheri,

      I’m okay. I was tired. We all are notes in a beautiful song aren’t we. I’m so glad you’re here. Thanks again. For everything.

      Love, Renee

  3. Your weekend sounds perfect, your reflections on who we all are – on point. Just recognize that your shine reflects itself on anyone and anything you’re around (even the laundry)..;-)

  4. as is ………”Insignificant ” as if ………………………
    It’s GOOD TO TURN OFF EVERYTHING 🙂 XXXX
    brave insights lady MM xxxx
    ps- debbie downer is pretty funny on SNL ……………
    For You xxxx
    Gulping the coffee – and singing with U 🙂 🙂 🙂

    xoxoxo
    C

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  6. It was Renee unplugged! How lovely, now if only we could teach our children how delightful it is to unplug themselves, a moment in time they have never known but a time I certainly remember fondly! Going back to basics is always a good thing! Thanks for the reminder!

    • It is so important to let go. I have to remind my kids all the time that technology ruined them. It is so hard for them to disconnect. Boredom is something that I do cherish. They haven’t gotten there yet, but they will. Hope your weekend was good.

      Love, Renee

  7. A quiet weekend with someone you love can have that effect… It’s so nice to ‘let go’ as you say, Renee… I found myself ‘drifting off’ into that wonderland of peace as I read your words… xoxoxo
    Then the moment for action comes and we are back with a gusto for something to get our teeth into… at least that’s the way it is for me…. Quiet rest and solitude, then I must return to action…. Seems to be ‘right’ for me….! 😉

    • And it is for me too. With quiet and rest, I find I’m so much better at work. At play. At life. I’m glad you are too. I knew I liked you my sweet. Now I have yet another reason to.

      Kisses, Renee

  8. To the world, you may be one person – but to one person you are the world. It’s better to be deeply meaningful to a few than meaningless to the masses, I think.

    It’s been suggested to me that just sitting there all unplugged in complete silence and darkness and attempting to think of nothing for 10 minutes is good for the mind, and for the day.

    • Yes my dear Edward it is a good exercise to be still. I’m learning the art of meditation. Of just “being”. I’m learning that it’s okay to not be “on” all the time. To take time for myself and listen to the silence. It’s healing. It’s cathartic. It makes me better.

      Thanks for the kind words my sweet Edward. I adore your passion. I do.

      Love, Renee

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