Quoteful Thursday-I’m Constantly Explaining Myself

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I am constantly explaining myself to almost everyone in my life. It’s exhausting. I just want to be loved for who I am, not what you need me to be. I am human, and I am flawed. I am woman, but more than that. I am a writer, lover, whore, mother, saint, sinner, and child. I am love.
–Renee Heath–

Sir Dorian Vega of Β The House of Vega, a society and culture page on Facebook took a comment of mine and posted it as a quote. I was incredibly honored that he thought enough of what I had written to do so. It was shared 13 times by people all over the world. That means that maybe, just maybe today someone thousands of miles away from my little corner of the world is sharing the words that I wrote. Maybe, just maybe, they are being read and changing the life of someone that feels the same way I do, sometimes. Maybe, just, maybe.

Love and kisses my friends.

Sparkly Girl

30 thoughts on “Quoteful Thursday-I’m Constantly Explaining Myself

  1. re: your wonderful quote –you are so not alone Renee! Congrats on the validation by House of Vega too — more proof – you are not alone!! πŸ™‚ x Love to you – RL

    • I’ve missed you so much Charliezero. Where have you been?????

      I’m okay. I have good days and bad. Just like the rest of us crazy humans.

      Kisses and lots of hugs.

      Renee

      • I’m good…Just had to step away for a while because someone here on wordpress community had the nerve to say bad things about me and they gotten their friends involved so they can say bad things about me.

        And the interesting thing about all this is that neither this person or their friends don’t know nothing about me or what my purpose in my creative writing is all about. They are such losers! and pathetic!

        Other than that I’m good…I miss talking to you. πŸ™‚ I will be posting more new blogs every Mondays, Wednesdays, & Fridays. πŸ™‚

        How is you and your husband doing?

      • Things are okay sweetheart.

        I’m sorry you had issues with another writer. Some of them can be assholes. I swear to you it can be like high school here. I’ve had my issues with one or two of them myself. Almost gave up once. Fuck that. No one can squelch our creativity!

        You keep writing. You’re good at it. I love what you do.

        I will be sure to check out your poetry.

        Love, Renee

  2. Stop explaining yourself then and you wont be as exhasuted. If thye are not worthy of your presence or imput, they are not worthy. Move on to who think is. They can go be worthy for somebody else. I never feel like I have to explain myself. I only give answers if you don’t like them, don’t listen. Go listen to something else then. Odds are I am not going to have anything you what to hear. Certainly not going to give any thing up for somebody that conbsatntly disagrees with me. Go hang somewhere else with who doesn’t. Life has toomuch in it to allow this. Takes up too much of my time and I am very selfish with my time.

    • My darling, you are so absolutely right. I’m learning this more and more. I’m learning that I’m the ruler of my destiny. I make my happiness. It is my time. I will do with it what I wish. I will smile and I will give. But I will also take what is mine. I will sit alone in a room and I will write. I will create. My words are my art. I will no longer squelch them. I can’t. I’m glad you don’t either.

      xoxoxoxoxoxo

  3. It really is exhausting, isn’t it. I’d say something trite like “lovely sentiment” or something, but it’s not — it’s frustrating as hell. But it does make a bold mission statement or personal philosophy or something. Like “It’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything” Tyler’s words coming out of my mouth. (wink)

    • It’s frustrating as fuck and I won’t do it anymore.

      I like your sentiment β€œIt’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything”

      You’re right Helena. You’re absolutely right.

      Love, Renee

  4. I hate making generalizations like “No one should ever have to apologize for themselves” because it reeks of hubris — sometimes we do have character flaws, and I’m always on the path of self-improvement, but we shouldn’t have to explain our basic nature or the way our mind works. In those instances, I take a page from a long dead Jewish guy who once said “Let those who have ears, hear.” Even he realized that he was going to be misunderstood, and couldn’t be bothered to try and make everybody happy.
    If it was good enough for Jeebus, it should be good enough for Renee!
    I feel your frustration, though. Just try to keep breathing.

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